tumbled and pulled

Said my prayers,
When to bed
protect me i said
Suddenly i wake up in the night
My sleepiness glided away from my reach.
I was just alone and awake
Some trouble began to bake.
all of a sudden i was at tug a war with my own speech.
Some annoying decision buzzed in my head
all the noise i was getting enough and fed
I was being tugged left to right
in the middle of the night.
I was being pulled but i didn't like it
grabbed to do one thing but grabbed to do the other
I didn't like it one bit
then i suddenly fell
to a sleepy spell
i had weird weird dreams
different things
all of a sudden something steams!
It was my arm
stretched out and turned
i reached for the light and then i got burned
The light was not so bright
I received tears of pain and fright
i saw a not so friendly face on my ceiling
what was it?
i was puzzling
then some strangely stranger
took of the remainder.
he would not stop pulling me
his grip wouldn't get weakly
He seem to be begging me.
Begging me to the follow his leadership
begging me to think he can actually be trusted
I thought of him more as lusted
and he reached for my grip
All this along with strange music
Everything was just wrong and sick
Along with everything i hear a creepy tick
This dream was not happening properly
What the heck happened with me?
i had a dream that i gave in to the pull
pull of bad things
Why would i do that?
Why would i get carried away
i was like a declining brae
that's crazy
that terrible
that's unbearable
Why was i tumbled
why i rolled?
Why was i crumbed
Why did i feel so cold?
I just wanted a safe night of sleep?
Why is this happening why did this happen?
I don't want to be forced anymore
Was something telling me to loose faith?
Was something telling me i was bait?
i know my poem and my dreams were so bad and mumbled
i don't know why i felt hopeless and crumbled...

You have a powerful tool!

Do you feel defenseless?
Are you tired of being stuck down with offense?
Are you tired of being pin down with such nonsense?
Are you fed up living in fear???
You curl yourself waiting for brightness of day?
waiting for all to vanish away.
Are you the one taking something that you don't deserve?
Or perhaps stuck with some one & force to serve?
well I desperately want to tell you!
i wanna confess what you need to hear
You don't have to take it...
You don't need to enjoy the dizziness
and take the stress
You don't need to go through all this pain (life is offering you)
You don't need to fear or live for the strain
You have a POWERFUL TOOL!
Yes you!
don't have to be a super hero
but the key to your prison was inside of you
Free your self.....today
fly away
Because all you need to do is PRAY.
Your own mouth and words can save you
believe me or not but this is true
Call it hopeless, say it's not.
But all the power is in every little thought
The power is inside of you
You just have to let it out
If you have to, then shout!
Conflicts...
It thought it can take me (or you) over
but WE have OUR savior!
i had my fears
Sometimes i was even scared to move
I was surrounded by visions and panic
My thoughts went out of control
Day after day
this was on a role
But yesterday and Now!
i prayed to my savior
and he did save me!
i was finally free
I didn't think i can escape
This problem was like a repeating tape!
I am out
I should be 100 percent free today
Because i learned my lesson
When need something and have troubles!
Call on Jesus
but also
I won't curl, and cry & take it like a fool!
No! I will use my powerful tool!



I pray for all my Facebook friends.....let The/our savior come into your lives to prove hes REALly helpful and caring, and let your problems just go away! Thanks for our powerful tool!

Show me the way

Show me the way,
I'm stuck in a thought.
Show me where to go
from the battle I've fought
Im helpless, alone.
Don't know what to do on my own,
broken,
on the verge of being crushed,
When i think to talk,
i get hushed.
Lord tell me what to do!
Show me a vision
take me there
help me make a decision!
This path is getting too foggy for me
where will i be?
I don't know what to do?
Help me see!
I'm in need of your presence.
Time is of the essence,
Speed is of the essence.
I remember when you give me ideas I love it!
I remember when you pulled me from those horrible problems
I'm above it!
Lord pull me out of this ditch of decisions!
Place me in the niche of my future visions.
Please avoid me the roads
where there is thorns and horns
Please make me pick the one with new faith born.
I want to help people get faith and take more my self
Another quest is to be and get closer with the best!
I need you
I need you helplessly
I want to run into your arms and be with you all day
But can you show me the way?

Stuffed in a bag?

Seriously don't think I'm crazy, offensive, outspoken or rude but shouldn't we spread the gospel around?
Shouldn't we make life living with God look like the most INTERESTING thing ever, when it really is?
Shouldn't we make an effort to do something?? Like if you started a club, poster, video or a dance, shouldn't we make the effort to finish it? If you prayed to God for something & got it, shouldn't you Thank him, & take the time to Appreciate him, instead of just running away with your gift, pretending like you don't know him. Like he didn't do you that favor... For those who are committed to him? Why do we do this?? It's like we STUFF HIM IN A BAG & zip him up & go somewhere & talk to our friends(like they do anything much?). I am a friend, who would ask about Him.

How are you & God doing?

Why don't we ever take him around & share the most good & precious value to people?, Why do we hide him most of the time? Why don't we ever make him a big deal when he really is? Why do we always zip him back up again? We might only take him to church & forget him once we walk out. While distraction & temptation strikes us, its our chance to run from him. When we're trying to finish a dance, play or a video, we easily let/want laziness to overrule us,
I'm wondering & just simply asking so many questions but its just so mysterious & weird to me. I may of done it before, but i try not to do it, i don't want to do it, because i make him the biggest deal ever. He created me & He can end me, He can give me a gift & He can take it back, He gave me trees, food, water, air, rain & enough sun & shade so i won't have a dark, dirty, dooming place like a dry dessert to suffer.
He does all while loving me. He leads me into the right path, literally, He cares which road i choose and i appreciate that alot. the wrong road can just do you the harm and it will really suck for you sooner of later. So why forget him, Why stuff him and put him away?

Some destruction of our world

God gave us a world

and his plans got so twirled
because we are causing too much damage
People are just taking advantage
All of this for our little needs
what ever happened to those precious seeds?
Seeds for the stem that would turn into a tree
God did teach how to grow seeds and begin new life
Never with the destruction, downfall and strife
He taught us to give life and obey
never take kill others & take it away!
He wants us to care
but instead people dare!
They can destroy a whole forest the bad ways they do,
just to make oils and bottles of shampoo.
Its like the lungs of our planet
20 percent of our oxygen
& animals dying
im not laughing
Other bad things are happening
letting it happen away
still happening today .
God is the holder of our Earth
and in his eyes
Everything we are worth!

My inspiration

A purpose

I was meant to do this
and i wont quit
i will go and fight
i will do it!
I was so ready to give up
but the powers been brought back
patience is what i lack
i will do this mission for him
my future will look bright and not dim
because i followed everything
and at the side i praise and sing
And gain the strength to continue,
to fight and defend
as it gets closer to the end.
There is nothing to worry
i only have to look forth to victory!
Me and him will be victorious
because he is righteous
Because my life is no longer dull
I will be living a miracle
It will fail not
I will take my spot
Fulfill
and succeed still
I have a purpose
and i will do my job properly
because he gave it to me!

Stand strong

God wants me and you
to be true and
Stand strong!
I know
it's been long
and you had enough!
and life is just so tough!
especially when you get these feeling in life
that don't really matter
your worrying about beauty and you getting fatter
You let little things knock you down
You should be focused on whats around
And what is coming
someone great and someone stunning
He is on his way
There is no time to crumble and lay
like your not okay
Its time to plant your feet firm
To keep this relationship long term
as you confirm.
Stand strong
and carry on
and do not fall down
and be bound.
Stand tall
above all
And be strongly,
for god has taught this lesson to me.
As i have been away from his house.
As laziness tries to take me in.
As temptation tries to act like its not a sin.
As i feel like i cant carry on.
I will stand strong!

This love

Is this love right or is it wrong
Is it getting weak or getting strong?
I love you
but do i want freedom?, i don have a clue
you are honestly the best
that's so obvious to express
mabye i should just stick around for a while
Your number i dial
But don't get to cozy
and on my shoulder, don't get too dozy
because i don't have time for this
sorry today you get no kiss
i have stuff to get done
im not the only one
i really hope you don't ask me for more time and be persuasive
because time i really cant give
They're taking it all away i cant rest now
How to get out of this?
i don't know how
This, no one will allow
They're taking my money
They're taking my time and energy
They have me all runny
separated from my honey
Im so unsure if i need you around or not
But then again i cant give up one of the best things I've got.
This issue
with it, just please go along
Because you are right and this is wrong.

Then and now with jesus

I begged i complained
My thoughts were insane
i had no hope, acting all sadly
this wasn't good, this wasn't me
I had no real friends so no comfort
one reason why it subvert
I felt like there was no love anywhere
No smiles, no hugs, no care
I felt unloved and hopeless
unable and depressed
where were my focuses?
where was my mind?
i was being hopeless
while someone was so kind
i may not of been triggered or reminded
But he was always there
and he was someone who cared
Someone who loved me
someone who viewed carefully
he was there through it all
but he wouldn't let me fall
He brings me a thrill
when i was feeling to kill
and needed a fill
Now
i had to do as i will
and praise his name
Make him a big part
and give him the fame
Before i was wrong
but now i am strong
He's more in my life
He is my life
and he provides me with life
i am no longer dim
Now i love me
and will always love him