The Love option

Love is an option
You either love or you don't
you either will or you won't.
For the bad that i am
I'm not worthy of the love.
For all the damage done...
I was on your mind
& on mine was fun.
How am i suppose to live?
How am i suppose to know that i can try to repair my life
without completely dying as yet,
while time is flying? 0.0
YOUR LOVE!
Your love is the only way i know you care.
Your love has got to be the only reason you're still there,
Watching...waiting
Waiting until i cry
"Forgive me!"
Oh,
such mercy.
I don't deserve this you see
but you still always give it to me.
Every time, All the time.
love is an option
& you choose yes
You choose to just take my junky pieces,
Give me glue & hope to just repair
& recreate my life into something beautiful.
You're always for & with me ...
You're love is amazing
It leaves me praising.
You choose yes!
& you made a way
a special way
That if i sinned my best
To get rid of that mess
I would just have to simply confess.

You chose yes!
& i can't ever perish
or go on feeling unloved.
I'm still living, & i have a really great life.(Don't deserve it)
Its like I'm floating but not trying to fly
an offer so perfect that i cant deny
How beautiful
Your love is amazing.
Your love is astounding.
It's my surrounding
Everything...
In general
to love someone is an option.
I mess up everyday.
I failed something when i master one thing
I'm glad you love me
How would i ever live
Without your love
God you reign in heaven above!
You taught us to love
& because of you
I don't wanna fight
I choose the love option

Run back to the cross

You're hurt,
You're strained.
Weak.
Pained.
Your innocence has been stained!
Alone you remain
To get over all you have lost
Go!
Run back to the cross!
Go before it's too late
Go when all former kind ones start to hate.
Go back to the time
Where your deadly life was saved.
If it wasn't for THAT life lost
On the cross
Hold down you would be
by a grave.
When the one you thought you loved
wasn't at all...
Run quickly back to the cross
When you're drifting away
& can't stop
Make your way back to the top
Back to Victory
Back to Calvary
Back to History
Back to the Cross.

Last minute

Oh last minute!
Where do you walk?
I hear you step, tick & tock
The unknown is the block.
I don't know where you are...
Time!
When do you end?
Where do you hold that last minute?
It's Somewhere
Waiting,
Standing
with it's little
feet planted.
We gotta stop taking life for granted.
Stop the fighting
it's possible to never make up!
Stop wasting your time
Helpless you will windup.
Last minute where do you run off to?
How will i know
When I'm living on you?
You're such a mystery
useful but not friendly.
anywho, i don't know what awaits me in the end
except for a wonderful friend.
I will patiently
wait eagerly.
As time runs out rapidly.
Come save!
I will behave!
For now I'll forget about that hiding minute
I just know it's last
Not vast.
It can be incognito,
But i really don't know.
When that last minute comes, can you hold on to it?
Not really
No!
Now is your time!
If it's not
You let it go....
& that's the End

Now

Now is the time to think
Now is the time to decide
Where are you going to reside? 

It's time to be serious
but you can have fun.
This is your life
& you only have one!

Are you gonna save it now?
Or will you save it later?
Are you going listen to the good
or be a debater.

Sorry to bring you to the edge of your chair
but there might not be a later
or another chance to care. 

There will be a soon
& soon is your deadline.
Get a hold of YOUR mind!
You're running out of time.

Life is going at some fast pace.
Against the time you race.
it will crawl & creep
run & leap
You can't defeat it
but you have to live on it
until it ends.

The Son of God visits
Now you have the choice to choose
Do you want to win or loose?
The game is simple
but the answer is clear!
Clear enough for the eyes to see. 
A full blown explosion of  pain or peace.
Life is your now & it's in your hands.
Cradle it careful like a baby.
Now you have to be real!
Quit being numb you need to feel.
Put aside temptation,
forget about
distraction, attraction, relaxation, agitation.
Time to rise up, & start listening!
Time to start considering 
those who are irritating

Time is running out
In a couple seconds, days, years about...
Almost time to go
The results of this test will show!
You can choose now

Don't make today meaningless
You've got to be serious!
Now!

Getting real about love

Two lovers with no choice
but to go higher.A Mistress is a cold candle.
in need of a warm fire.
The act of melt & admire
My love the Lord is desire...Always...
Always hungry yet satisfied.
Never ignored, never lied.I have proudly & gladly testified.
One hug made me touch the sky.
To that place where happiness is just so darn hard to ever reach.
You may want to impeach, but i wanna preach!
This ever-growing love has done much for & to me!
In ways i couldn't believe.
Situations where i thought impossibly!
Times i knew i couldn't achieve.
Even when incoming doubts
this love i can never leave.
Dying for my life
with the hitting pain of nails sharper than your knife.
Just to save my life...
An unfailing love just for me
When i fail to love.
The proof is true history
Can't you read & agree?
This relation has it all
even a bouncy cushion when i fall.
Who needs the young stress.
LIVE LIFE AT YOUR BEST! =]
Who really enjoys the cheats?, breakups, cries, lies, despise, lusting eyes, being hypnotized
The regrets, restricting net, drama,
etc!
I can't find joy in something so temporary,
I'm attracted to real & Holy
My spirit flows where ever Holy is at.
God!
Holy is that
Holy is he
The love that never fails
The lover & reason for my tales
The one who will surely in his hands
take hammered nails.
The one who would approach to your spot just to get you & save you!
The one who lives to create & rescue
His love!
It hits
but acquits.
The moment he visits
I know I'm in love.
The moment i lift my hands high above!
I'm in love!
The moments we never fought
actually...
we never fought
I loved his every thought.
He was meant for me <3
This love was meant to be.
It was also meant for you
enjoy & believe ^.^
This love shoots out life
not end yours...
Let's get real about love
God is Love.


You can have yours
But recognize your true source ;)

Every soul i can think of...
gone & untouched
I've reached
& was left with an empty clutch.
The spirit of badness
tossed in things of unlikeness,
just like a pot of stew.
I would never transgress!
I've walked through, passed
& away from trouble.
It slithers
It sneaks!
& covers my mouth,
pushing original voice away
No one can hear me!
But all can hear it!
I'm not saying it!
I do not permit!
Is this me?
It can't be..
This isn't my heart!
I never felt this before or the start!
I was too smart
to walk into that hole,
But i felt too weak to fight for my control.
A talk, or some prayers would of gladly helped,
Where are the souls?
Every soul scattered
Every built solution shattered.
I'm left with me, my mind & my tears...
My problem & my fears.
I don't know what to do than to weep
I don't know what to say but to weep
I'm spoon fed force-ably!
I cry for help but barely heard.
Slowly melting in my mind..
My hope is being sucked like a vacuum
Hope was never no residue
I have so little left
I'm not listening to to pure theft.
I almost believed that i was unloved & forsaken
But whenever i reach
I don't want a lie to be taken...

Testimony Blog

God has showed me wonderful things.
Things that could not of been received unless i asked him. He reached for things that i can't seem to stretch up to get. First i want to mention I couldn't of graduate out of high school without my God. I deserve to be one of those people who get held back & miss credits normally, i was bad at test & failed most of my regents...i failed some twice, how the heck did i get out of high school? I had a global regents, i took it 4 times, i have to admit the 1rst three times i didn't seek God enough to really show him i wanted to pass, or even showed that i cared. That last time i felt scared knowing that i had only one chance to pass the exam. The exam that i have failed & had been too difficult for me. I clinged on to God like a small child on her parent's calve begging them not to leave me with the babysitter. I could of just prayed & know it would be okay but i did little studying too, because i had to show that i want to pass, sometimes it's like holy spirit studies with you...I took that regents, aced it with a score slightly over the passing & praised God knowing that i can finally graduate. When i saw that lowish but passing score, i realized that I could of failed that exam, but this time some mercy helped me slide a couple more points over...The mercy of a wonderful God. I can trust him.
I don't know how this happens but the people that you are perfectly comfortable with...They stab you...hard! All of a sudden they're making assumptions about you. A close person making assumptions? It's ridiculous because they already know you, & they look at you wrong when they have always known you were right. Right enough to be their friend. All of a sudden this nice person feeds you insults, & trash talks you like no tomorrow. I'm wondering, did i really do all of this?...i blamed my self, i beat my self up, i had tears, constant thoughts, emptiness... This was a sad dumb situation prepared by chef Devil, but it woke me up...That God is the true friend i should seek & not this or that person. I cried unto God like i was sinking in my tears, I cried on to God as if i was going to drown in it.. Friendship is something that i love to build & knowing that i totally screwed one up shattered me. Holy spirit ran to my rescue & was with me the whole time. He comfort me when i sleep, He races back when my running thoughts come at me again. He help me get through it all...Now i don't care about the person & I'm even closer to God than i ever was . He's with me when I'm upset & he comforts me when I'm down. He offered me friendship when i lost one. The presence of God is the best & there is no other person you can be friends with that will ever do what he did. Stay by your side all day & remains determine to help. It's like he raced for me, picked me up & ran away with me from the wicked.
He helped me save my friend, He blessed me with a job opportunity, He taught me, He guides me, He protects me, He loves me, He fixes all problems etc etc =]
I believed him
& i still believe that he will take me to better places than before.