At the beginning of this year, i was told that the best year of my life was about to unfold. As this year now comes to an end i can summarize it with some words...Hardworking, New, Changing, Knowledge, Hope, Help, Different, Expensive, Train, Quick, Closer, Wow, Trust, Developing, Strength, Choices, kindness, Love, Unusual & battle. After you've seen these words how do you sum up the year? Does any relate to you? After thinking about 2009...I think it's was a great year. I may of had some stress, struggles & extra things to pay for, But it turned out Great!(honest) When i heard that this year was going to be the best year of my life, I heard that message in church. That message didn't exactly mean that I'm gonna have exotic vacations, find true love, Become famous or Enjoy all holidays, Hek, i didn't enjoy most of my Christmas. But one really great thing happened, I learned more about my Lord, I became closer to him. Close enough to feel him, Close enough to tell you that these blogs are not fake, my imagination or just my personal opinion, it's true, & God is all REAL. I used to learn about our Jesus, but later i would always question if he was still real or if science & theory's were THE true facts...Now I'm sure, That he's real. This upcoming year, i plan to get closer & do more for God. I wanna hear his voice!!! That's a hek of a resolution but I know it's possible. With God my Struggling, stressful 2009 year was a great, wonderful year after all, But for 2010 It's going to be even better, who knows maybe less stressful. God never wants us to be stressed @ all, he wants us to call on him & be positive in our problems so we don't be stressed. I'm gonna work on that to, Because who needs to feel that way, cry or have extra pimples(ew), i mean if you want sympathy no one will ever give it to you! God is the only one who cares for you & want to fill you up with what you lack. This year many people including me & my close family changed. I can remember when me & My cousin Ryan were worried about these people not changing & they continue to do wrong, but look what happen now! This year was great, I improved, everyone i know improved. There's always room for more improvement. 2010 will be an improvement! Positivity, Action, Change, God!
I wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEARS! & i hope that all your New Years resolutions come true & HAPPEN! , because it gets more possible EVERY year ^.^
In many different ways he is wonderful.
In many different ways he CAN fulfill.
For many different disasters, he causes a blossom
When you sum him up...
He is awesome!
He cares for your every little need
He wants YOU to succeed,
even EXCEED.
When you are envied
He can give YOU the lead!
When love is what you need
Your heart, he can overfeed.
He loves you when you push him a way,
He loves you when you disobey
He still loves you when you forget him today.
isn't that quiet odd?
How awesome is our god?
He created Earth & sky
Every plant,
Every animal that crawl, hop, swim & fly. (u name it)
He doesn't just let us just live life then die,
He lets us learn, right & wrong
& how to see like HIS eyes.
Have us to help others fly.
Have them to be happy, strong & alive.
When you help someone it's an awesome feeling. (For you & them)
Just like the God we are seeing!
We see he's loving, We see he's caring, We see he's merciful, We see he's beautiful
We see he's Awesome!
The Gala was awesome! I never pictured Hope NYC to look like a beautiful hall. But when i walked in, it blew me away, i didn't believe it! It seriously looked a beautiful hall or a fancy restaurant. There were beautiful chandeliers, snowflakes, lights & Christmas trees, out of all the times the church transformed...this was the biggest transformation. I saw many people transformed too. Everyone looked so beautiful, glittery, shiny(hair lol) and dazzling. I hurried up to put my coat away, cuz it clashed with my dress lol.... & i rushed back to my table. As i squeezed my self back, i see beautiful tables, I saw a big Brooklyn bridge with light cars and little people( it won 1rst prize), i see a table with candles & flowers, One with a huge, tall floral center piece (wow!) another with a chocolate fountain & marshmallows, & one with a lot of silver. The table i sat at was nice too, idk if it was in the contest but it was gorgeous. When i finally got to my seat i see Julia next to it, i was shocked and happy to see her (idky lol) She looked pretty in her outfit, & we had lots of catching to do lol. The first beautiful dress i saw was Keisha. She looked like a real princess. I saw Ricky, Amos and Ryo, they all looked great too with their suits, especially with the bow ties(kinda funny lol) Pastor Sharon looked dazzling in her shiny beaded brown dress...& yes a pastor could be dazzling! lol. The food was delicious, & the games were funny, & we took pictures. Pastor Curt played a game with us called lets make a deal, where we chances to win money or nice gift. Most people chose a gift box instead of money in the envelope, they ended up wit 5 dollars or a sorry note lol nobody won 100 dllrs, We took professional pix, found out the winner of a table contest & had a raffle. There was a small game of bingo(Melanies request) me, Arti & Amos played on my board, using marshmellows lol... After wards they were playing Parang. Whats parang you asked? Parang is a type of music with Caribbean and Latin American cultural influences. The word is derived from the Spanish word parranda, meaning 'merry-making' or 'a group of serenaders' and etc etc, Me, Arti, Sophie, Amos, and Tanaya went up to dance, before we had to go home. We had a blast, then Ryan came up to dance with Arti, i was shocked! Ryan was dancing! ( tell everyone! lol)Rickey was there too & he had his wacky moves lol...This was a memorable night, I don't think i will forget it. Everyone had a good time, Everyone looked great, & it all happened, Thanks to Jesus, & Thanks to him for uniting us to create Hope NYC.
I may love my diamond and my pearl,
but can it save me from this world?
Can it ever protect me
or revive when they reject me?
Can they ever sit and listen, other than sparkle and glisten?
They are not going to do anything and neither will i
if i stay here to rely.
They can't solve a problem
but sure can cause them.
How can you get back on track when you're being carried away.
How to survive tomorrow and today.
Talk to the one who created all the earth and the diamonds.
Seek for the one who can multiply bread by the thousands!
Materials can do you harm,
You are just easily fooled by the look of its charm.
You are convinced that you need nothing else when you have this jewel.
But consequences are cruel.
The lord watches over his foot stool. (the earth)
Reach out to this one of righteousness!
call the name of the one who can satisfy you endless.
The name to call is Jesus.
He wants to give you everything you would like and more than that.
He gives you happiness
eternal and limitless.
Between you and the diamond,
You are the richest!He's is watching you, and he is with you through thick and through thin.A diamond is not your best friend, They were lyin. (when they said that)
Music used to be something that i liked....when...
-It had a good beat
-It was the popular new song out
-It was what my group of friends were into
But now... It's all trash!!!! I never used to think about the meaning, i used to like it by not what is says but how it sounds. Now I'm looking for a true meaning. Now im looking for something new, Im looking for something not stupid. Love is so overrated like seriously! Love is not the only thing in life you know...sex may be good to everyone but it's not the only best feeling in the world. New songs to me are kinda errrr to me...i mean "LOL smiley face"? what the hek is that one about?... its meaningless to me.
i've givin it up.... This is just my opinion, I'm not telling you to stop listening to what you like... Music & me are not over. Now every time i put on those headphone or open i tunes on my computer, it's not for trash anymore...i have something with meaning to listen too. Something good on my play list. The songs for my lord. They have the right meaning, different words, meaningful words that last forever. There are also some that have great beats. Songs about god wouldn't sound too good, they never used to sound interesting at all to me....but when you listen to certain ones, you know... the ones with a beat you desire Its the greatest thing you'vr ever heard. It can also inspire you to play music...something everyone wishes they can do. Today's music doesn't make you want to do anything but sit there for hours with headphones stuck in your ears. It doesn't talk about things you personally can relate too...its only about the lovers problem & dancing with hot girls.... that music ain't so hot at all. now next time when i hear something, i don't want just mumbo jumbo in my ear, I want truth & power...something i don't even mind singing to myself....What if you catch your self singing "i kissed a girl" or "I like it rough"(by GaGa) Yes! while you are singing that you are actually saying it....so the chances are if you're a girl singing that, your gonna kiss a girl in future or be in a sexual position...singing after a song has happen before....You may think you're smart but life changes and gets you there somehow! its a mysterious way...But you know your mouth a weapon it self, your simple words will take you where you will go in life, your mouth is power & it can change something! believe it or not...i witness and experienced this enough to tell you this...not lying..true...not lying ..TRUE! lol so yeah, WATCH YOUR MOUTH! listen with you ears and listen to words, speak carefully ask me questions or leave comments if you have any lol
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Yesterday was freezing! confusing! demanding!...i was so close to not going to church, because i knew i would have to take the train the brick cold weather. The train was possibly local too. I thought it would of been too much trouble... then a thought came to me, insisting that i SHOULD go to church. I told my parents my minds made up & i didn't care; I was going! My dad had to drive his friend to the airport(he missed church)....he was starting to get annoying because he really almost kept back our Sunday & it caused arguments( i had a headache). Also my mom was insisting i shouldn't go in the cold. I really hate it when the enemy uses adults & parents to keep a determined child of god away from church. He can make a christian person care less about our wonderful god...The one who always & will always matter. We should always care about him...like seriously!
She was trying to drag me away... she also wanted me to come back to her church in the Bronx..which 1rst of all, i don't like the Bronx, 2nd of all, i wasn't really getting anything from that church not even the presence of the holy spirit....I never knew about that or about some special language called speaking in tongues. I never heard of them in my life! Me and my cousin Ryan (long ago) used to talk on the phone or talk on aim. He mentions that he feels the presence of Jesus....i never did... i couldn't even follow of what he was talking about. I kinda had a feeling he was bragging & i felt bad... i didn't even like talking to him at that time ( just a faze ryo) because he was making me feel like an atheist( i did love god), but really; i didn't know anything i was lost. I couldn't follow him. When i think of this, i can't believe where i am now.... That Sunday of church that i almost missed! it really made a difference, i feel more closer to god. I use to not care about going to church, I'd try to avoid it sometimes, but i wanna go now. Ever since i switched churches and went to HOPE NYC. I feel like there's always a big blessing & another step towards my journey waiting for me. My journey is to get closer to my Lord. I can't believe how far i was...i can't believe i never felt his presence on me...now i do feel it & I'm feeling it stronger as my determination goes on. I can finally talk to my cousin about Jesus, & we can actually feel the same thing. Our convos are now happy and I'm not mad at him. There's one thing about us that's different though....During our convos, he would sometimes say that the holy spirit told him something.... I would gladly listen but i wish the spirit would tell me something... Hopefully as i keep walking my journey i will hear the voice of God and speak the heavenly language...I'm not there now but I'm getting there....close=]
Other ways i changed...i used to dislike christian music but it's all i listen too now I used to not want to play the piano and i quit my lessons=[ but i want to start playing now. God is good =] bringing out talents in me
December is a month of glamor. It's a month of joy. It's a month of importance... It leaves me with an excitement just thinking about it. If it's not my birthday, It's Christmas. If it's not those things it's the Christmas breaks we get from school & families get together during the holiday. A very exciting, fun part is picking & buying your dearest friends and families presents(and charity). My list gets longer every year, but i don't mind it at all. Giving a person a gift and seeing their expression means a lot to me. It really seems more fun to give than to get, and I'm not just saying that because its the right way to feel. I actually like it more than getting, but getting is nice too ^.^ A month of glamor. I can't think of a time where i dressed up a lot... than in December, Heck i actually have A GOOD REASON to dress up. Instead of just appearing beautiful & dressing up for occasions that are not for you. I have my birthday, & I'm expecting fun and generosity this day, (they wanna make me a cake ^.^) especially since it's my last year being around these cool people @ school I've come to know. I also get to celebrate with my twin!!! My twin is awesome, Were into mostly the same things, we get the same thoughts it happens quite plentiful actually idky, She's super nice, super smart & a wonderful friend. But not to go off topic=]... In Dec i get to dress up for me on a fun day &
i get to dress up and look nice for Christmas too. Christmas is one of the most important days in the whole year. The birth of our wonderful, amazing Jesus Christ(in Bethlehem lol) and it's a day where everyone puts their sour attitude away and be generous.Our savior was BORN! That's a wonderful life changing event, & I'm thankful for Christmas,& for only this reason! He didn't want us to suffer death & perish, he saved us all from that, so that we(humans, his creation) can LIVE , even up to today, Today we live, complain a lot & reject him but he still saved us...he is a/the god of life...& forgiveness. There's a Christmas Gala in our church, Hope nyc. An extra reason to be glamorous. Our church will be a winter wonder land, We get
photography, people get to see an amazing dance(entertainment) a couple contest, games & prizes, good food & tons of fun and joy. December is a month like no other. It's a month for, me you, twin^.^, & Jesus to be completely happy about.
