Wow!
The year is coming to an end!?
"New Years felt like yesterday" someone had told me on Sunday.
I'm starting on my Christmas list now. Expensive cool gifts on my mind but no worries. God will provide money or just a way. A mysterious clever unexpected way that i have no idea about until after it happens. 0.0
God has been doing miraculous things lately. As this year gone by, the blessings got more & more BIG! Sometimes I would say that I cannot believe it!... But since it all already happened i have no choice but to 0.0.
I'm talking Major Changes! Precise answers to our prayers! These miracles include: God answering our prayers in only minuets. Kids, teens & adults getting so much closer to him! Just as they wanted. People started to touched their goals. Graduations, Engagements, Marriages! oh soo much more. Stubborn people letting go of their bad old ways, & changing for the better.
If this year was miraculous & unbelievable, I'm wondering how next year will turn out.
Before i was THIS close to God, nothing exciting really happened. There was the progress of growing & having more knowledge but it wasn't fun without knowing Jesus. I wouldn't even learn how to ditch the lost people I've called friends.
I'd be relying on stupid things to move my life. My life moved in big steps this year.
I'm so excited for next year!
I'm sayin getting closer to God & Living his way (what he wants for you) is the best way to have an awesome year. It may not be hard....but it's so easy ^.^
Life on Earth here....isn't so easy & it's not the place God where wants us to live forever, but whenever you're in some kind of jam, He makes a mysterious clever unexpected way that you have no idea about until after it happens. 0.0 (like i said earlier)
He has done that many times this year & caught me by surprise every time. Sometimes when i feel something will end a certain way, it ends no where near that way. 2010 is an example. I didn't know i was going to wrap up 2010 with a hot new piano from Best Buy, plenty new friends(Jeremy, Shanae, Shenel, Jason, Sita, Tia, Anderson, Anita etc =) & being part of an Awesome play(Play of life: Epic Battle between good & evil).
I had no idea it was all coming. Life is pretty sweet. With God it's exciting, daring, unusual, awesome, amazing, surprising, fun & worth it!
As December kicks in I think about Jesus fabulous Birthday 0.0 & I brace myself for the new year.
It's also my birthday too! 0.0 (& No I'm not turning 15 or 16!) =)
Then the ice skating trip
Then the Christmas Gala
So exciting.

Happy Holidays Everyone!
Make Jesus a part of your next year!
If you do that...
Brace yourself for the miracles! ^.^

Misguided

I don't know what we're living in
but i know we're living in proof.
We know it with our eyes;
misguided with some lies,
kept back from revealing
with our shys.
Sadly some are
like the tide, pulled in with belief but
pushed back out with the denial
I thought they were going to hide.
I can feel the truth back then
& see the new truth happening now.
I can sense the truth coming up next
I listen, know, read, & suspect.
If the faith is lost
& going to be gone
What was the point of it all along
in the very begining
it was all you were singing.
The reason for your life
the reason for loving
the reason for living.
It was always there & it worked.
Faith is up to you
it's what you invested.
but it has to be tested.
You mean to tell me you drop it all?
Let all fall?
... out of place
taking you?...
out of your place?
Tell me...
Why let go of a strong hold?
In a world so cold?
A world not created by you
but created for you
It's not a move so bold
because our enteral soul
in this temporary world
is meant to be where life is.
Perfect life.
Not made by you
but for you.
Already there for you.
I prefer to wrap the truth around me
have it surround me
& never let it go.
Many lies can be started
by hiding
one truth
One simple truth, not so hard to catch
& hold on to
No longer want to be misguided;
& the lies?
I no longer want to be invited.
with help from my eyes
I don't want to leave the proof
that's inviting me to the truth.
I don't wish to be pushed & pulled
like motions of gravity.
I want you to be invited
& no longer misguided.

Able

Turning unable duty
into beauty.
Revealing the blue
in my gray view
Lord you can do it all!
You're more than able.
Even through me
or an angel.
Allowing miracles
as you choose
Impossible is no excuse!
You.
Your will.
I cannot refuse.
Such a secured hope.
In life i go
around i grope...
In any block
& in any trouble,
You're my rope.
A sudden strong presence of evil
actually crushed.
It looses.
It cries, grumbles & is hushed.
Things that I've wanted so desperately,
I thought was too amazing for me
I now have it HAPPILY!
It was able & heavenly.
Miracles can happen
even in you.
Anything you dream
can be true.
If you just want it to
Then it's able
Because he's able
The Lord
Never fails you
Never will
You may have to wait & be still
but it will all be fulfilled!
Don't let a realist
take you downhill.
When God is able
Go as high as you can go.
Dream big Dreams.
God can take you
He's so able.
Take him
Know him.
Your wants,Your needs,
Your life
It won't ever be dim
But alive & bright.
In your sight,
Even in your reach.
It's desirable
& acquirable
Impossible yet accomplishable
Surely dependable.
You just gotta know
The Lord is able!

My Dull Diamonds

You accuse me.
You doubt me.
You lead me towards the feeling of worthlessness.
Honestly.
Seriously.
Mostly everybody!

Reading my faults
Know only what i can't do.
I feel pushed down
but refuse to frown.
People believe in others,
Passing around the faith,
yet it skips me.
Sometimes feeling that
no one wants to hand me a chance
one so determined with the right stance

True
but doesn't worry me.
Not any bit
Not any more...
This time I'm sure.
Life may run too fast & taunt
but it doesn't know
I could catch & outrun it if i want.
You can pour hope in someone
But the day they let you down
I'll still be standing up
not crumbled to ground.

Am i some sort of competitor?
No longer care.
cause i have my own mission
carry on with the competition.
You've won & could win again if you want
I know ONE DAY I will shine & vaunt.
God will do it his day
his way.
I have no time to play.
yet Not even afraid to loose
This decision i choose...
To just refuse...
To refuse to take in the doubts
To refuse to soak in the blame.
I refuse to mind the opinions...
I'm more than you think
Past fails, appearance,
DON'T link!
Me is me
& honestly
I would never want to be someone else.
Refuse to feel worthless
because i have a dream
Right now
as bad as it seems
These dull diamonds you pointed out in me
just so happens to gleam.
God will complete my dream.

Flesh

Flesh

Like an annoying whiny baby.
Never pleased
Never happy...
Dramatic as it wails
it will simply die

if we don’t obey,
& it won't be okay

We feed it all the time
everyday
in every way...
Sometimes we have no better say.

Flesh

it think it has the control

Giving simple commands
"feed me
please me
Oh how I want this so badly".
Driving your soul

To spiral out of control

In the end
your soul holds blame
as you pay the price for
your bad baby...
We ought to give it a pacifier
because my choice is what I desire.
What I need to acquire.
I want to be selfless

Do much more good
Gain some sort of righteousness...

I want to put this baby down
for a time out.
Allow the spirit inside

to rise up & about!

Claiming its chance for victory!

To take Control

of this child that’s taking its toll

To spoil the soul

Alive & indestructible

Yet the one about to loose the battle.

Flesh

Never satisfied...
has always tried to seek something
something it can’t find.

An unmoving Happiness

Fulfilling bliss

A gate

Where flesh find no access

So why the sacrifice???
Why anymore?
Pleasing it leads to
a new toy store.
For the moment
my fingers count to ten
I hear myself say
here we go again...

I have the baby

Trying to fight off the cries

Ignore every sincere lie.

What’s needed
is for flesh
to be a little defeated
while my spirit gets fed.
The baby won't be dead,
but taken care of
not spoiled or overfed...


My spirit is the main picture here
The good one.
Wrong is my fear
when wrong happens
who fears?

Not flesh
it makes
another cry, new & fresh.

When fasting

Spirit & flesh will disagree

The battle affects you Greatly

Let spirit taste victory

& Flesh taste nothing

& be happy

I may be weak right now
But i won't stop believing
I know that life is deceiving
But i can't let it hold me.
If i have a dream
It's mine & God's will to go get it.
Get it without a worry.
Things might not be looking up
I'm pinned down thinking of not getting up.
Things won't change unless you go.
Go!
Do something
Go somewhere.
Pick yourself up.
The least others can do
is probably pick on you
maybe put you down...
but your pick yourself up from the ground
You should believe.
Always
& you will surely receive
Receive something
followed by another something
followed by another something
following the steps to your dream.
That's how good life should seem.
Don't give up so fast
Give yourself another chance!
This is not the last dance.
Believe
Achieve
You never have?
try it
or you never will
& your dreams you kill.
Don't let a little excuse to cry
cause your dream to die.
Don't go on facebook & twitter
to weep & report.
cause you to fell down.
You may be weak right now
But that future you gotta allow!
Don't cancel the good one you once believed
because you've been deceived.
Follow your dream.
Find strength somewhere
somewhere
don't stay down
Don't taste the ground
so dirty & dusty
But surely taste victory!

The Love option

Love is an option
You either love or you don't
you either will or you won't.
For the bad that i am
I'm not worthy of the love.
For all the damage done...
I was on your mind
& on mine was fun.
How am i suppose to live?
How am i suppose to know that i can try to repair my life
without completely dying as yet,
while time is flying? 0.0
YOUR LOVE!
Your love is the only way i know you care.
Your love has got to be the only reason you're still there,
Watching...waiting
Waiting until i cry
"Forgive me!"
Oh,
such mercy.
I don't deserve this you see
but you still always give it to me.
Every time, All the time.
love is an option
& you choose yes
You choose to just take my junky pieces,
Give me glue & hope to just repair
& recreate my life into something beautiful.
You're always for & with me ...
You're love is amazing
It leaves me praising.
You choose yes!
& you made a way
a special way
That if i sinned my best
To get rid of that mess
I would just have to simply confess.

You chose yes!
& i can't ever perish
or go on feeling unloved.
I'm still living, & i have a really great life.(Don't deserve it)
Its like I'm floating but not trying to fly
an offer so perfect that i cant deny
How beautiful
Your love is amazing.
Your love is astounding.
It's my surrounding
Everything...
In general
to love someone is an option.
I mess up everyday.
I failed something when i master one thing
I'm glad you love me
How would i ever live
Without your love
God you reign in heaven above!
You taught us to love
& because of you
I don't wanna fight
I choose the love option