If praising my heavenly father is so "bad", then i want to be a criminal.
If having extra hope in your heart is so "silly" then tease me!
My father loves me & I love him
You may think it's wrong
& I'm always singing this same song!
The truth is that you're so unsure!
You're finding ways on me to lure.
Your trying to play tug of war
But, I will never part with the one i so adore!
If he's so "wrong" then i don't wanna be right!
If praising is dangerous, then i wanna fight!
The lord's love has lifted me...
His swift strong Spirit flows through my body
A feeling so good and crazy
It feels ten times better than a kiss.
It's something you need to feel, i do insist.
The lord is much more opposite than harm.
Which is what you like to do!
You see now
You've been caught red handed
You have the right to remain silent.

Fall back

Fall back into his arms
for he will catch you.
Fall back on him
like you are suppose to.
Depend upon him
like you depend
on your way, which goes dim.
Because of him,
Tomorrow is bright!
Things will turn right.
When you gaze into the future
you want to panic & worry
run away & scurry.
You know what will happen
... you really do not!
Things change from what you imagine.
When you know you have the Lord(Jesus)
Why worry?
For any enemy or weapon,
He will be your sword.
You will be able to run forward.
For anyone who comes to you with toughness &strength
He will bring forth mercy from THEM!
He will shield you of what you don't want
Don't be afraid of such crazy taunts.
He Has you,
And You have him.
Fall back.
Trust.
Don't fear the attack.
that is heading toward you.
Because what harm can it do?
None
Shun.
You think that,
it's so obvious
that tomorrow will be that bad
but don't worry or be sad
Just be positive, have faith & simply not worry.
He has you
& He has saved me.
He is realer
and he is your deliverer.
Trust him
and Fall back.

When you see us

You are the Almighty God!
but us ignorant humans you are willing to seek.
You are powerful & non defeat-able!
yet gentle defender of the weak.
Why do you do this?
Tell me!
Speak!
Jesus!
What do you see in us?
I see a girl who tries to serve & talk to her lord but can't succeed it all the way,
I see she tries to find time to give praise, some time in her day,
when she gets time, her body will lay, quick pray & then sleep away.
Hek, Some will sleep in the sun ray.
Lord we raise you up & throw you away
& yet you still treasure us?
Lord you give us favors
& the gift of a new day,
yet i dunno what to say
You love & give grace to us
even from the day you created man from dust
What can you possibly see in us?
It's like
I see a girl sigh & try
but You see that girl soar high & defy!
I see a boy who fails & bails,
But you see a boy who prevails!
Lord you can see us succeeding & serving you
& yet
we do so far from that
Your visions for us are wonderful & clear(OUR future)
& yet so possible to appear!
when we fall & fail even more
You would pick us up,
refill our strength & hope, & see beautiful wonders in us!
more possible than we would know!
Jesus!
I will hold my trust in you & will see just like you
When you see us.

This year

At the beginning of this year, i was told that the best year of my life was about to unfold. As this year now comes to an end i can summarize it with some words...Hardworking, New, Changing, Knowledge, Hope, Help, Different, Expensive, Train, Quick, Closer, Wow, Trust, Developing, Strength, Choices, kindness, Love, Unusual & battle. After you've seen these words how do you sum up the year? Does any relate to you? After thinking about 2009...I think it's was a great year. I may of had some stress, struggles & extra things to pay for, But it turned out Great!(honest) When i heard that this year was going to be the best year of my life, I heard that message in church. That message didn't exactly mean that I'm gonna have exotic vacations, find true love, Become famous or Enjoy all holidays, Hek, i didn't enjoy most of my Christmas. But one really great thing happened, I learned more about my Lord, I became closer to him. Close enough to feel him, Close enough to tell you that these blogs are not fake, my imagination or just my personal opinion, it's true, & God is all REAL. I used to learn about our Jesus, but later i would always question if he was still real or if science & theory's were THE true facts...Now I'm sure, That he's real. This upcoming year, i plan to get closer & do more for God. I wanna hear his voice!!! That's a hek of a resolution but I know it's possible. With God my Struggling, stressful 2009 year was a great, wonderful year after all, But for 2010 It's going to be even better, who knows maybe less stressful. God never wants us to be stressed @ all, he wants us to call on him & be positive in our problems so we don't be stressed. I'm gonna work on that to, Because who needs to feel that way, cry or have extra pimples(ew), i mean if you want sympathy no one will ever give it to you! God is the only one who cares for you & want to fill you up with what you lack. This year many people including me & my close family changed. I can remember when me & My cousin Ryan were worried about these people not changing & they continue to do wrong, but look what happen now! This year was great, I improved, everyone i know improved. There's always room for more improvement. 2010 will be an improvement! Positivity, Action, Change, God!
I wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEARS! & i hope that all your New Years resolutions come true & HAPPEN! , because it gets more possible EVERY year ^.^

The lord is awsome

In many different ways he is wonderful.
In many different ways he CAN fulfill.
For many different disasters, he causes a blossom
When you sum him up...
He is awesome!
He cares for your every little need
He wants YOU to succeed,
even EXCEED.
When you are envied
He can give YOU the lead!
When love is what you need
Your heart, he can overfeed.
He loves you when you push him a way,
He loves you when you disobey
He still loves you when you forget him today.
isn't that quiet odd?
How awesome is our god?
He created Earth & sky
Every plant,
Every animal that crawl, hop, swim & fly. (u name it)
He doesn't just let us just live life then die,
He lets us learn, right & wrong
& how to see like HIS eyes.
Have us to help others fly.
Have them to be happy, strong & alive.
When you help someone it's an awesome feeling. (For you & them)
Just like the God we are seeing!
We see he's loving, We see he's caring, We see he's merciful, We see he's beautiful
We see he's Awesome!

The gala

The Gala was awesome! I never pictured Hope NYC to look like a beautiful hall. But when i walked in, it blew me away, i didn't believe it! It seriously looked a beautiful hall or a fancy restaurant. There were beautiful chandeliers, snowflakes, lights & Christmas trees, out of all the times the church transformed...this was the biggest transformation. I saw many people transformed too. Everyone looked so beautiful, glittery, shiny(hair lol) and dazzling. I hurried up to put my coat away, cuz it clashed with my dress lol.... & i rushed back to my table. As i squeezed my self back, i see beautiful tables, I saw a big Brooklyn bridge with light cars and little people( it won 1rst prize), i see a table with candles & flowers, One with a huge, tall floral center piece (wow!) another with a chocolate fountain & marshmallows, & one with a lot of silver. The table i sat at was nice too, idk if it was in the contest but it was gorgeous. When i finally got to my seat i see Julia next to it, i was shocked and happy to see her (idky lol) She looked pretty in her outfit, & we had lots of catching to do lol. The first beautiful dress i saw was Keisha. She looked like a real princess. I saw Ricky, Amos and Ryo, they all looked great too with their suits, especially with the bow ties(kinda funny lol) Pastor Sharon looked dazzling in her shiny beaded brown dress...& yes a pastor could be dazzling! lol. The food was delicious, & the games were funny, & we took pictures. Pastor Curt played a game with us called lets make a deal, where we chances to win money or nice gift. Most people chose a gift box instead of money in the envelope, they ended up wit 5 dollars or a sorry note lol nobody won 100 dllrs, We took professional pix, found out the winner of a table contest & had a raffle. There was a small game of bingo(Melanies request) me, Arti & Amos played on my board, using marshmellows lol... After wards they were playing Parang. Whats parang you asked? Parang is a type of music with Caribbean and Latin American cultural influences. The word is derived from the Spanish word parranda, meaning 'merry-making' or 'a group of serenaders' and etc etc, Me, Arti, Sophie, Amos, and Tanaya went up to dance, before we had to go home. We had a blast, then Ryan came up to dance with Arti, i was shocked! Ryan was dancing! ( tell everyone! lol)Rickey was there too & he had his wacky moves lol...This was a memorable night, I don't think i will forget it. Everyone had a good time, Everyone looked great, & it all happened, Thanks to Jesus, & Thanks to him for uniting us to create Hope NYC.

Is a diamond all i need?

I may love my diamond and my pearl,
but can it save me from this world?
Can it ever protect me
or revive when they reject me?
Can they ever sit and listen, other than sparkle and glisten?
They are not going to do anything and neither will i
if i stay here to rely.
They can't solve a problem
but sure can cause them.
How can you get back on track when you're being carried away.
How to survive tomorrow and today.
Talk to the one who created all the earth and the diamonds.
Seek for the one who can multiply bread by the thousands!
Materials can do you harm,
You are just easily fooled by the look of its charm.
You are convinced that you need nothing else when you have this jewel.
But consequences are cruel.
The lord watches over his foot stool. (the earth)
Reach out to this one of righteousness!
call the name of the one who can satisfy you endless.
The name to call is Jesus.
He wants to give you everything you would like and more than that.
He gives you happiness
eternal and limitless.
Between you and the diamond,
You are the richest!

He's is watching you, and he is with you through thick and through thin.
A diamond is not your best friend, They were lyin.
(when they said that)