crash

Why is everything crashing down?
We had something!
such a beautiful sound.
a beautiful sound to the ears of god.
now it's just a horrible screech,
wrong goals have been reached.
it's nothing about what god has teach
Suddenly wrong is right!
that bond is strictly tight.
There's no need to fight.
like i said...wrong is right.
Good is pined down
Evil is winning this round.
How sad.
Giving in victories as they are piled.
Don't you remember that you are god's child?
Right now i feel left alone!
stuck in boredom & lonesome like a still stone.
With no true friends by my side.
It's like my enthusiasm for people had just died.
I feel awful.
When you try to be there and lift me.
It makes me feel worse
not better.
Why are we crumbling?
Whats with the tumbling?
Why did we go down
when we were so high up
The future was bright,
Great ideas took flight.
Now we have to settle for just anything?
What a different song you sing.
Where was the power that we all had together.
I thought it was forever.
Please no more drama
It's making me crash down
Things look and feel bleak
Like a depression,
where's the hope to seek?
Tears run town my cheek.
I can't believe it would come to this....
My own problems and you simply worry me...
It's hard not to care.
Also feeling like hope isn't there.

Excitied

I feel a joy as things crumble down.
I sense interference as i try to listen to a crying sound.
A good feeling races towards me, but it hasn't yet arrived
But it has something to do with god
The reason why i survived.
I am excited
for what god has in store.
I am sure its not the end
THERE IS MORE!
After all of this occurring
Great things even miracles are approaching!
I can feel it now
It's running AFTER us
We are going to have it! our father will allow!
It's racing fast
taking off with speed
what you have now is like a growing seed.
Your flower is going to bloom
meaning you get
Amazement like boom!
I wasn't too happy with my test,
I'm sometimes under stress
A relative may have died.
And to talk to my sister, i have tried!
I know i have failed and
I'm worried for troubles ones who had bailed.
But i am excited!!!
Because it's(god/good things) soaring my way
and yes I'm talking about 11/24/09 TODAY!
I know I'm about to get something amazing & life changing
I'm standing here to catch it!
never to miss a great hit.
I'm so excited
because here comes the blessing.
YOU ARE FINALLY GOING TO SEE SOMETHING!(difference)
A real something!

Society tells me

Society taught me that being generous is a waste of time
It says that disrespect is true & makes us look good
It has spoken that parents should be hated...
And we should just take their food & money, & just go on our way.
Society says i should be hated because I'm not the same race as everyone else.
It says i should be a perfectionist about my self & body.
I must have the right hair, right face, right neck, right look.
It's required for me to wear make up & use things that I'm not born with.
like perfect face features, perfect lashes, perfect skin tones.
Tight clothes are required, the less clothes, the better.
Looks are everything!
Society tells me that partying is the ultimate source of joy and i must have one...
even though its expensive & attracts problems.... i still must have it, and throw plenty.
Society would have it's most interest in me if i show no sign of pureness,
no sign of appreciation, no true affection for anything.
It's good to not trouble myself,
but good to give others trouble, its good to use them.
Society taught me numerous times that i have to put education as the least important
& it gets me no where.
It made several laws stating that i must spend my money on the latest gadget out.
It's says here that i must buy things, even when i don't need them.
I must love the new song out!
even if the message is bad, i must sing it like i know it.
It basically tells me to destroy my face, my world, my true emotions and the way my soul is...and whats left of me
It must be gone, and i cant get to it anymore. I am now ruder, less knowledgeable and better looking.
and it's a good thing!
It has told me myself is ugly, unimportant and worth nothing.

That's society..
but i believe in GOD!
who created A Society before it CHANGED.... on it's own...to this
He tells me I'm beautiful & i don't have to act like someone else.
He repairs my every damage & provides more than comfort.
He says that those perfect body features and outer appearance mean not one thing to him!
I just have to be human & myself to experience what i really need in life
& you can get that from God him self.
God says not to follow society but to follow him.
All you have to do is follow.... no changing, no buying anything. Take a burden off your life and be you!
God is perfect, nice, awesome, generous, smart, beautiful, wonderful, amazing, great, Holy & much more....I rather to try to impress him than the people who will bring me down.

Stress juggling

sigh* i've got so much ideas, so much thoughts , many decision and not one clue of answer
There are many thing i want to start, but i just been putting them off for reasons or no reasons. I've got so much to do and time is just going away from me, one minute i see 3 0 clock and then i see 6 0 clock, its goin to fast and my days seem short. i have deadlines, scholarships, projects, and excitements coming up. I don't exactly have seinor-ritus but i have birthday itus and christmas gala-itus. For those things i get to be dressed up, treated nicely and get to have fun. It also gives me another reason to thank the Lord. Thank the lord for living an extra year and thank him for a great celebration of his birthday. Those two are just my favorite celebrations of the year. I also like to give presents to my close good friends =] It's sad after high school i won't see these/most of people any more. There were good times had and to be had. Luckily i still have awesome people in my life, and i get to keep them! yay lol my amazing cousins and my pastor/friend/ dance instructor, Sharon, they have awesome personalities and they are so close to god. It's so great. I'm so thankful for that. And also my new friend Julia who i met through them. She's awsome! , helpful and shes going through the same things as me, what a shock lol , its cool to have someone with the same point of view as you. At least through these struggles i have them to cheer me up. Mostly we all pray over the phone, and after that i feel like all my stress/ all my assignments that I WAS juggling are just gone! And just in a few words. They just completely vanish. The stress comes back every day or two but it's my job to kick it back where it came from and take my time and have a lovely dress lol. Im starting to sew so i have to make sure its all perfect =]. Some times i get lazy and i hate that! and i cant afford it no more. But i have to shake it off and continue working because every project, scholarship, etcetc is one step to my long term goal and if that's good then I'm going to have a pretty suite life 8-) ...compared to now....or a VERY suite life . That's what i aim for. When ever you have stress and plenty to do, it's good to have people to go through it with you

Surprise visit

The time is defiantly coming
I can feel it almost happening
It gives me an even better reason for celebrating and clapping.
His visit is coming soon
You'd better brace!
Feeling his short presence was just a little taste.
When he comes down
some will frown
When he comes down
the trumpets will sound
When he shows
They will realize that
They've been focusing on wrong
While some may sing a song=]
When he comes through the opened sky
I want to say hi
And some will deny.
deny that they've done bad.
Knowing they've never listened and done right from the start!
Most people are not going to feel so smart.
When he comes to save us once again
There will nobody this time to offend.
Seriously, this is a good thing.
Truth never lying
Because its a promise
from an excellent promise keeper
Who always kept his word
and his love for YOU can be much deeper.
Deeper than anyone you know
Just for you he can show.
Don't close the door on him
open and let him visit.
and a miracle will rush in.
Brace yourself for when he may appear
Certain people may soon disappear
to place of no fear.
Don't you wanna be there?
Time is going
days are shortened/faster
His visit not a specific time
to know, you don't have to be wise
but it is a surprise

Why not?

He lived for you
Why not live for him?
He died for you
Why not die knowing him?
He saved your life
Why not save others!?
He cared for you
Why not care for him?
He rose up from the grave
Now can you raise up your head? =]
He is your close friend.
Why can't you be a friend?
He wants to invite you to his Mighty Kingdom
You should want to invite people into his church, his house
He wants you to appreciate life
Like you appreciate your car.
He is rooting for you!
Like you root for the Yankees.
He will never turn on you
Like WE turn on him.
Sometimes we do the opposite from him,
But
He can forgive you!
Why not ask him?

Everyday sounds

" What did you say?
HOW OLD ARE YOU AGAIN?
You tricked me! liar!
What kind of song is playing right now?
Didn't i tell you to take the headphones off?
I can't hear you!!!
Lets see the takeout menu!
Were running late!
Your taking too long with make up
Wow! you actually get home cooked meals!??
I live to be a model!
Wait what!
Wheres my credit card?
Ha ha you have swine flu!
She's always on the phone!
Do you EVER? drink water??
So!?
She/he's TOO YOUNG!
Durga durga..
Let her cry!
You have a bacon egg and cheese everyday!??
I sent 1906 text messages today!
What's the point of this?
You have to do it like THIS!
Hello!? What doughnut do you want!??
I always buy a Monster and drink fruit juice everyday!???
COUGH* Smoker!
What's the point of life?
Oh my goodness I'm so tired!!!!!!!!
Did you even start on college apps yet?
I'm getting drafted for war!
Do you want Chinese?
I'M TIRED ALREADY!
I like this!
f****!
Your so******* and *****
I don't have my green card lets face it!
They're growing up so fast!
Can you get it for me please!?
Urgh lets drive there!
I failed gym!
Why trust Jesus??? try other gods! Jesus happened 2000 years ago, you mean to tell me he exist?
Why can't you do this!
let me tell you what happened...she said that she.....
Americans....
I'm going to buy something to eat after school...yeah again
HOW SHOULD I DO MY NAILS!
I think it's a stupid song!
I'm going to be a vegetarian, i can be thinner, i have to give up meat and some of my favorite foods.
God didn't do this,
you did it yourself!
She/ he/ I'm getting fat and had put on more weight!!!
She used to be nice and skinny like a model but she get fat now!
Too much soda.
I'm not hungry.0--< I don't want this class because its boring
I wanna sleep!
There's no liquor at the prom!
sorry i don't have money to buy you a gift
I don't want to go to church!
HONEY spend time with me=[
I hate waking up early!
I wish it was over
WHEN IS VACATION?!
I can always get lazier eye surgery.
Urgh You sound religious again!
Yo man we gotta chill!
I haven't heard any new songs i like lately.
WERE GOING TO MC DONALDS.
I took a nap in class again.
Are you gonna see this movie?
I need glasses now! 0-0
I'm too fat, i need to go on a diet!
Urgh this guy wants to have sex with me!
Come on! stop cutting class or your gonna fail!
Where is MY present?
She's always texting!
Were in a recession!
Theyre always on their phones and computers, they cant talk to me.
Your racist!
She lookin ugly!
I WANNA GO TO THE PARTY = - D
Stuffing our faces with junk food!
I don't know about you but I did great!
I don't like this class because the teacher is boring and the room is dull, i'm gonna switch
My mom cooks like two times a year!
MAN YOUR SO LAZY!
You suck!
I DIDN'T STUDY!
It's boring!
Are you seriously gonna do that again?
I WANNA WALK!
You never talk to me when i see you!
The war is happening in this country...
Lets tek a beer!
He spends $ on pills
My grandmother only cooks.
You don't need make up! your pretty!
she isn't very smart is she?
Always on the computer ignoring me!
I don't wanna work!
Wasting paper
Global warming/climate change!
Oh my God!
You've only known him in a week how do you like him??
I'm joining in the navy
I DON'T WANNA GO DOWN THE HALL ITS TOO FAR FOR ME!!!
No you cant do that!
She spent that money to do her eyes!
Littering
Were gonna die in 2012.
I heard SHOOTING in my area like a day ago!
i used too..
I love him and i don't care!
I wanna watch "Drag me to hell"
we just want to live our lives and have fun!
You cant do this!
YOU LOOK SEXY!
She said that
He said this
I want big black glasses and the checkered pants
I forgot what i said
You look....
I CANT LIVE WITHOUT MAKE UP!
You spent nearly 1000 dollars on a bag??
He's a hypocrite
It never happens!
I don't care!
I DON'T KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "
These are the sounds i hear and witness. Some of these quotes are mine and some of them are from random people i see in stores or the street. And some are from my cousins & friends. This is society so far...do you like it? how does it seem to you? Is it declining down or going up in the right path? All of this stuff happens, what will happen with this world if it continues to happen?