It only matters

It only matters if you can hear me

It only matters when you look & see
It only matters if you know me truly.
Your the only one i preciously love.
The only one i care most about,
knowing without one doubt,
you'd save me no matter what.
It only matters that i stay safe.
That i don't drift away to waters of darkness
causing me to wash up on a shore of emptiness.
It only matters when i confess.
When I'm on an island of distress.
You'll be there & ready to take over & bless.
It only matters that I love you.
Love enough to destroy the wall between us. (repent from sins)
Thus coming together.....
That part really matters =]

Wake up

Wake up & see the situation
Will your eyes awaken to problem?
Your so consumed by unwilling people & things.
It's like nothing matters to you anymore.
Except the harmful things you adore.
You think this is your grout.
You have not a care or a doubt.
Not a care to help a desperate needy soul.
Not enough of a heart to warm the suffering cold.
It doesn't seem to open your eyes?
Only looking at annoying yet lovable lies.
The one that stabs you in disguise.
Wake up & feel the pain
Swim up from the deep
So life can finally explain.
You released of a pure, true strong love
& let it fall away.
Just for a something that will end & decay.
You pick something that will fall apart
& let go a true foundation who held & loved you up from the start,
Oh my heart!
Wake up! view reality!
Peek at what you have done
to the One.
How can you turn away from something so real & willing to please you,
turning to something so fake & hesitant to rescue...
How can leave someone so helpless
when you can help them the best!
Please
Wake up!
Because your living a lie
& you should wake up
Before your sorry soul
shall die.
& regret
Is your destiny really set?

If praising my heavenly father is so "bad", then i want to be a criminal.
If having extra hope in your heart is so "silly" then tease me!
My father loves me & I love him
You may think it's wrong
& I'm always singing this same song!
The truth is that you're so unsure!
You're finding ways on me to lure.
Your trying to play tug of war
But, I will never part with the one i so adore!
If he's so "wrong" then i don't wanna be right!
If praising is dangerous, then i wanna fight!
The lord's love has lifted me...
His swift strong Spirit flows through my body
A feeling so good and crazy
It feels ten times better than a kiss.
It's something you need to feel, i do insist.
The lord is much more opposite than harm.
Which is what you like to do!
You see now
You've been caught red handed
You have the right to remain silent.

Fall back

Fall back into his arms
for he will catch you.
Fall back on him
like you are suppose to.
Depend upon him
like you depend
on your way, which goes dim.
Because of him,
Tomorrow is bright!
Things will turn right.
When you gaze into the future
you want to panic & worry
run away & scurry.
You know what will happen
... you really do not!
Things change from what you imagine.
When you know you have the Lord(Jesus)
Why worry?
For any enemy or weapon,
He will be your sword.
You will be able to run forward.
For anyone who comes to you with toughness &strength
He will bring forth mercy from THEM!
He will shield you of what you don't want
Don't be afraid of such crazy taunts.
He Has you,
And You have him.
Fall back.
Trust.
Don't fear the attack.
that is heading toward you.
Because what harm can it do?
None
Shun.
You think that,
it's so obvious
that tomorrow will be that bad
but don't worry or be sad
Just be positive, have faith & simply not worry.
He has you
& He has saved me.
He is realer
and he is your deliverer.
Trust him
and Fall back.

When you see us

You are the Almighty God!
but us ignorant humans you are willing to seek.
You are powerful & non defeat-able!
yet gentle defender of the weak.
Why do you do this?
Tell me!
Speak!
Jesus!
What do you see in us?
I see a girl who tries to serve & talk to her lord but can't succeed it all the way,
I see she tries to find time to give praise, some time in her day,
when she gets time, her body will lay, quick pray & then sleep away.
Hek, Some will sleep in the sun ray.
Lord we raise you up & throw you away
& yet you still treasure us?
Lord you give us favors
& the gift of a new day,
yet i dunno what to say
You love & give grace to us
even from the day you created man from dust
What can you possibly see in us?
It's like
I see a girl sigh & try
but You see that girl soar high & defy!
I see a boy who fails & bails,
But you see a boy who prevails!
Lord you can see us succeeding & serving you
& yet
we do so far from that
Your visions for us are wonderful & clear(OUR future)
& yet so possible to appear!
when we fall & fail even more
You would pick us up,
refill our strength & hope, & see beautiful wonders in us!
more possible than we would know!
Jesus!
I will hold my trust in you & will see just like you
When you see us.

This year

At the beginning of this year, i was told that the best year of my life was about to unfold. As this year now comes to an end i can summarize it with some words...Hardworking, New, Changing, Knowledge, Hope, Help, Different, Expensive, Train, Quick, Closer, Wow, Trust, Developing, Strength, Choices, kindness, Love, Unusual & battle. After you've seen these words how do you sum up the year? Does any relate to you? After thinking about 2009...I think it's was a great year. I may of had some stress, struggles & extra things to pay for, But it turned out Great!(honest) When i heard that this year was going to be the best year of my life, I heard that message in church. That message didn't exactly mean that I'm gonna have exotic vacations, find true love, Become famous or Enjoy all holidays, Hek, i didn't enjoy most of my Christmas. But one really great thing happened, I learned more about my Lord, I became closer to him. Close enough to feel him, Close enough to tell you that these blogs are not fake, my imagination or just my personal opinion, it's true, & God is all REAL. I used to learn about our Jesus, but later i would always question if he was still real or if science & theory's were THE true facts...Now I'm sure, That he's real. This upcoming year, i plan to get closer & do more for God. I wanna hear his voice!!! That's a hek of a resolution but I know it's possible. With God my Struggling, stressful 2009 year was a great, wonderful year after all, But for 2010 It's going to be even better, who knows maybe less stressful. God never wants us to be stressed @ all, he wants us to call on him & be positive in our problems so we don't be stressed. I'm gonna work on that to, Because who needs to feel that way, cry or have extra pimples(ew), i mean if you want sympathy no one will ever give it to you! God is the only one who cares for you & want to fill you up with what you lack. This year many people including me & my close family changed. I can remember when me & My cousin Ryan were worried about these people not changing & they continue to do wrong, but look what happen now! This year was great, I improved, everyone i know improved. There's always room for more improvement. 2010 will be an improvement! Positivity, Action, Change, God!
I wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEARS! & i hope that all your New Years resolutions come true & HAPPEN! , because it gets more possible EVERY year ^.^

The lord is awsome

In many different ways he is wonderful.
In many different ways he CAN fulfill.
For many different disasters, he causes a blossom
When you sum him up...
He is awesome!
He cares for your every little need
He wants YOU to succeed,
even EXCEED.
When you are envied
He can give YOU the lead!
When love is what you need
Your heart, he can overfeed.
He loves you when you push him a way,
He loves you when you disobey
He still loves you when you forget him today.
isn't that quiet odd?
How awesome is our god?
He created Earth & sky
Every plant,
Every animal that crawl, hop, swim & fly. (u name it)
He doesn't just let us just live life then die,
He lets us learn, right & wrong
& how to see like HIS eyes.
Have us to help others fly.
Have them to be happy, strong & alive.
When you help someone it's an awesome feeling. (For you & them)
Just like the God we are seeing!
We see he's loving, We see he's caring, We see he's merciful, We see he's beautiful
We see he's Awesome!