The flashing of the lights ease the tensions
the movements of the feet calms the stress.
Vibrations from the speakers blocks the world.
Everything is fine
though it's a mess?

Dance to the noise
which they call music.
Girls kiss the boys
as they put down the toys.
Buy out all you can wear!
Show off, look good
& never share?
Party,
get wasted
Real happiness
you think you've tasted?


They call this music
But i don't hear harmony.
they call his party
but theres nothing hearty.
They wanna get wasted
but I wanna be used! (helpful)
They call this love
but it's just not lastin.

Why disagree
When the news spread rapidly?
Why slap the help
when you can't bare the pain
Why refuse Jesus when his word
is happening.

This world is crumbling
but i refuse to go down with it
Teens getting lazy
but i just won't sit.

TBC....

Fight in life.

Life is a miracle
yet it's a battle.
Some certain forces;
hits you!
trying & get you chasing for more!
So you will Never be satisfied ...
Because there is always better.>Some forces simpily just gets your scattered life back together.

One force attacks me
& hits the other force as well.
The other attacks!
but i wasn't the one who fell.
The battle is amazing
yet not so swell.
One force trying to drag me off my feet
wants me to taste defeat!
I'm no where near interested
It force fed not suggested
One force so gentle & soothing.
Ending my pain so miraculously...
Giving hope when i saw darkness
& mysetery.
Healing power & Loving strength!
Two things i never saw winning a battle.
The other force screams & rattle,
as it fades away
loosing.
Because of the force i'm choosing!
Theres an epic battle!
Between good & evil.
In lives.
Causing tears
diffrent strives,
of diffrent kinds
How will you fight when
the battle arrives?

One day the battle will end for good!
& you'll live in peace
Right!
as you should!
One force will fight for you (not with you)
It's able & it could!
It's all you!
As the battle goes on!
Who will you pick to rescue?

Wow!
The year is coming to an end!?
"New Years felt like yesterday" someone had told me on Sunday.
I'm starting on my Christmas list now. Expensive cool gifts on my mind but no worries. God will provide money or just a way. A mysterious clever unexpected way that i have no idea about until after it happens. 0.0
God has been doing miraculous things lately. As this year gone by, the blessings got more & more BIG! Sometimes I would say that I cannot believe it!... But since it all already happened i have no choice but to 0.0.
I'm talking Major Changes! Precise answers to our prayers! These miracles include: God answering our prayers in only minuets. Kids, teens & adults getting so much closer to him! Just as they wanted. People started to touched their goals. Graduations, Engagements, Marriages! oh soo much more. Stubborn people letting go of their bad old ways, & changing for the better.
If this year was miraculous & unbelievable, I'm wondering how next year will turn out.
Before i was THIS close to God, nothing exciting really happened. There was the progress of growing & having more knowledge but it wasn't fun without knowing Jesus. I wouldn't even learn how to ditch the lost people I've called friends.
I'd be relying on stupid things to move my life. My life moved in big steps this year.
I'm so excited for next year!
I'm sayin getting closer to God & Living his way (what he wants for you) is the best way to have an awesome year. It may not be hard....but it's so easy ^.^
Life on Earth here....isn't so easy & it's not the place God where wants us to live forever, but whenever you're in some kind of jam, He makes a mysterious clever unexpected way that you have no idea about until after it happens. 0.0 (like i said earlier)
He has done that many times this year & caught me by surprise every time. Sometimes when i feel something will end a certain way, it ends no where near that way. 2010 is an example. I didn't know i was going to wrap up 2010 with a hot new piano from Best Buy, plenty new friends(Jeremy, Shanae, Shenel, Jason, Sita, Tia, Anderson, Anita etc =) & being part of an Awesome play(Play of life: Epic Battle between good & evil).
I had no idea it was all coming. Life is pretty sweet. With God it's exciting, daring, unusual, awesome, amazing, surprising, fun & worth it!
As December kicks in I think about Jesus fabulous Birthday 0.0 & I brace myself for the new year.
It's also my birthday too! 0.0 (& No I'm not turning 15 or 16!) =)
Then the ice skating trip
Then the Christmas Gala
So exciting.

Happy Holidays Everyone!
Make Jesus a part of your next year!
If you do that...
Brace yourself for the miracles! ^.^

Misguided

I don't know what we're living in
but i know we're living in proof.
We know it with our eyes;
misguided with some lies,
kept back from revealing
with our shys.
Sadly some are
like the tide, pulled in with belief but
pushed back out with the denial
I thought they were going to hide.
I can feel the truth back then
& see the new truth happening now.
I can sense the truth coming up next
I listen, know, read, & suspect.
If the faith is lost
& going to be gone
What was the point of it all along
in the very begining
it was all you were singing.
The reason for your life
the reason for loving
the reason for living.
It was always there & it worked.
Faith is up to you
it's what you invested.
but it has to be tested.
You mean to tell me you drop it all?
Let all fall?
... out of place
taking you?...
out of your place?
Tell me...
Why let go of a strong hold?
In a world so cold?
A world not created by you
but created for you
It's not a move so bold
because our enteral soul
in this temporary world
is meant to be where life is.
Perfect life.
Not made by you
but for you.
Already there for you.
I prefer to wrap the truth around me
have it surround me
& never let it go.
Many lies can be started
by hiding
one truth
One simple truth, not so hard to catch
& hold on to
No longer want to be misguided;
& the lies?
I no longer want to be invited.
with help from my eyes
I don't want to leave the proof
that's inviting me to the truth.
I don't wish to be pushed & pulled
like motions of gravity.
I want you to be invited
& no longer misguided.

Able

Turning unable duty
into beauty.
Revealing the blue
in my gray view
Lord you can do it all!
You're more than able.
Even through me
or an angel.
Allowing miracles
as you choose
Impossible is no excuse!
You.
Your will.
I cannot refuse.
Such a secured hope.
In life i go
around i grope...
In any block
& in any trouble,
You're my rope.
A sudden strong presence of evil
actually crushed.
It looses.
It cries, grumbles & is hushed.
Things that I've wanted so desperately,
I thought was too amazing for me
I now have it HAPPILY!
It was able & heavenly.
Miracles can happen
even in you.
Anything you dream
can be true.
If you just want it to
Then it's able
Because he's able
The Lord
Never fails you
Never will
You may have to wait & be still
but it will all be fulfilled!
Don't let a realist
take you downhill.
When God is able
Go as high as you can go.
Dream big Dreams.
God can take you
He's so able.
Take him
Know him.
Your wants,Your needs,
Your life
It won't ever be dim
But alive & bright.
In your sight,
Even in your reach.
It's desirable
& acquirable
Impossible yet accomplishable
Surely dependable.
You just gotta know
The Lord is able!

My Dull Diamonds

You accuse me.
You doubt me.
You lead me towards the feeling of worthlessness.
Honestly.
Seriously.
Mostly everybody!

Reading my faults
Know only what i can't do.
I feel pushed down
but refuse to frown.
People believe in others,
Passing around the faith,
yet it skips me.
Sometimes feeling that
no one wants to hand me a chance
one so determined with the right stance

True
but doesn't worry me.
Not any bit
Not any more...
This time I'm sure.
Life may run too fast & taunt
but it doesn't know
I could catch & outrun it if i want.
You can pour hope in someone
But the day they let you down
I'll still be standing up
not crumbled to ground.

Am i some sort of competitor?
No longer care.
cause i have my own mission
carry on with the competition.
You've won & could win again if you want
I know ONE DAY I will shine & vaunt.
God will do it his day
his way.
I have no time to play.
yet Not even afraid to loose
This decision i choose...
To just refuse...
To refuse to take in the doubts
To refuse to soak in the blame.
I refuse to mind the opinions...
I'm more than you think
Past fails, appearance,
DON'T link!
Me is me
& honestly
I would never want to be someone else.
Refuse to feel worthless
because i have a dream
Right now
as bad as it seems
These dull diamonds you pointed out in me
just so happens to gleam.
God will complete my dream.

Flesh

Flesh

Like an annoying whiny baby.
Never pleased
Never happy...
Dramatic as it wails
it will simply die

if we don’t obey,
& it won't be okay

We feed it all the time
everyday
in every way...
Sometimes we have no better say.

Flesh

it think it has the control

Giving simple commands
"feed me
please me
Oh how I want this so badly".
Driving your soul

To spiral out of control

In the end
your soul holds blame
as you pay the price for
your bad baby...
We ought to give it a pacifier
because my choice is what I desire.
What I need to acquire.
I want to be selfless

Do much more good
Gain some sort of righteousness...

I want to put this baby down
for a time out.
Allow the spirit inside

to rise up & about!

Claiming its chance for victory!

To take Control

of this child that’s taking its toll

To spoil the soul

Alive & indestructible

Yet the one about to loose the battle.

Flesh

Never satisfied...
has always tried to seek something
something it can’t find.

An unmoving Happiness

Fulfilling bliss

A gate

Where flesh find no access

So why the sacrifice???
Why anymore?
Pleasing it leads to
a new toy store.
For the moment
my fingers count to ten
I hear myself say
here we go again...

I have the baby

Trying to fight off the cries

Ignore every sincere lie.

What’s needed
is for flesh
to be a little defeated
while my spirit gets fed.
The baby won't be dead,
but taken care of
not spoiled or overfed...


My spirit is the main picture here
The good one.
Wrong is my fear
when wrong happens
who fears?

Not flesh
it makes
another cry, new & fresh.

When fasting

Spirit & flesh will disagree

The battle affects you Greatly

Let spirit taste victory

& Flesh taste nothing

& be happy