My Dull Diamonds

You accuse me.
You doubt me.
You lead me towards the feeling of worthlessness.
Honestly.
Seriously.
Mostly everybody!

Reading my faults
Know only what i can't do.
I feel pushed down
but refuse to frown.
People believe in others,
Passing around the faith,
yet it skips me.
Sometimes feeling that
no one wants to hand me a chance
one so determined with the right stance

True
but doesn't worry me.
Not any bit
Not any more...
This time I'm sure.
Life may run too fast & taunt
but it doesn't know
I could catch & outrun it if i want.
You can pour hope in someone
But the day they let you down
I'll still be standing up
not crumbled to ground.

Am i some sort of competitor?
No longer care.
cause i have my own mission
carry on with the competition.
You've won & could win again if you want
I know ONE DAY I will shine & vaunt.
God will do it his day
his way.
I have no time to play.
yet Not even afraid to loose
This decision i choose...
To just refuse...
To refuse to take in the doubts
To refuse to soak in the blame.
I refuse to mind the opinions...
I'm more than you think
Past fails, appearance,
DON'T link!
Me is me
& honestly
I would never want to be someone else.
Refuse to feel worthless
because i have a dream
Right now
as bad as it seems
These dull diamonds you pointed out in me
just so happens to gleam.
God will complete my dream.

Flesh

Flesh

Like an annoying whiny baby.
Never pleased
Never happy...
Dramatic as it wails
it will simply die

if we don’t obey,
& it won't be okay

We feed it all the time
everyday
in every way...
Sometimes we have no better say.

Flesh

it think it has the control

Giving simple commands
"feed me
please me
Oh how I want this so badly".
Driving your soul

To spiral out of control

In the end
your soul holds blame
as you pay the price for
your bad baby...
We ought to give it a pacifier
because my choice is what I desire.
What I need to acquire.
I want to be selfless

Do much more good
Gain some sort of righteousness...

I want to put this baby down
for a time out.
Allow the spirit inside

to rise up & about!

Claiming its chance for victory!

To take Control

of this child that’s taking its toll

To spoil the soul

Alive & indestructible

Yet the one about to loose the battle.

Flesh

Never satisfied...
has always tried to seek something
something it can’t find.

An unmoving Happiness

Fulfilling bliss

A gate

Where flesh find no access

So why the sacrifice???
Why anymore?
Pleasing it leads to
a new toy store.
For the moment
my fingers count to ten
I hear myself say
here we go again...

I have the baby

Trying to fight off the cries

Ignore every sincere lie.

What’s needed
is for flesh
to be a little defeated
while my spirit gets fed.
The baby won't be dead,
but taken care of
not spoiled or overfed...


My spirit is the main picture here
The good one.
Wrong is my fear
when wrong happens
who fears?

Not flesh
it makes
another cry, new & fresh.

When fasting

Spirit & flesh will disagree

The battle affects you Greatly

Let spirit taste victory

& Flesh taste nothing

& be happy

I may be weak right now
But i won't stop believing
I know that life is deceiving
But i can't let it hold me.
If i have a dream
It's mine & God's will to go get it.
Get it without a worry.
Things might not be looking up
I'm pinned down thinking of not getting up.
Things won't change unless you go.
Go!
Do something
Go somewhere.
Pick yourself up.
The least others can do
is probably pick on you
maybe put you down...
but your pick yourself up from the ground
You should believe.
Always
& you will surely receive
Receive something
followed by another something
followed by another something
following the steps to your dream.
That's how good life should seem.
Don't give up so fast
Give yourself another chance!
This is not the last dance.
Believe
Achieve
You never have?
try it
or you never will
& your dreams you kill.
Don't let a little excuse to cry
cause your dream to die.
Don't go on facebook & twitter
to weep & report.
cause you to fell down.
You may be weak right now
But that future you gotta allow!
Don't cancel the good one you once believed
because you've been deceived.
Follow your dream.
Find strength somewhere
somewhere
don't stay down
Don't taste the ground
so dirty & dusty
But surely taste victory!